just one more minuts please

i go to bed each night
thinking its all okay
and wake up each morning
wishing it all away
just five more minutes is all i ask

pillow tucked in real close
as tears soak the soft case
the thoughts are blurring
as my mind beings to race
just four more minutes is all i ask

i sit there and be silent
though only for a tiny bit
my blood sugar runs low
as i grab my diabetic kit
just three more minutes is all i ask

i turn the tv louder
to drown away the sound
of the yelling and the screaming
for the pain that i have found
just two more minutes is all i ask

i close my eyes again
try to fall back to sleep
to dream somemore
of the one i couldnt keep
just one more minute....is all i ask
to stay asleep so deep

What I Needed To Say

you swore you loved me
you told me i was your everything
i told you i wouldnt sleep with you
all that flew out the door
the words got louder and meaner
your face got redder
i tried to yell louder for you to hear me
you grabbed my arm tight
i told you your hurting me
you only tighened your grip
as the tears formed in my eyes
you yelled at me to stop crying
that this was my fault
all i had to do was listen
and do what you asked
i got away from you strong grip
my arm already bruising
i yelled at you
that you were nothing to me
that your words couldnt save you this time
im done forgiving you
as i turned my back to walk away
you yelled to me that i was to never
in this lifetime to turn my back to you
i felt the sharp pain hit my back
i fell to my kneesyet another pain same spot
i was now face to face with the hardwood
as i rolled over your arm was cocked back
ready to give another blow
you got your face right up to mine
and in a heartbreaking voice
you told me noone would ever
again call me beautiful
before you hand got to me
i swung head on hit
as the blood dripped from your nose
i realized what i had done
and i knew if i stuck around
it would be my end
i got up fast as i could
ran for the door it opened
you werent far behind me
with your blood on my hand
and mine on my shirt
i ran faster then ever before
i gott outta there
this wasnt my fault
this is noones but your own
you hurt me one to many times
trying to fade you away into my memory
but this bruise it stays to remind me
of that night
of that time that i said no
and paid for it
this bruise it wont dissapear
but you my dear are already gone
so why couldnt I say
goodbye


Kronzer this was taken care of no worries :)

Final of Lexie Maria Degonda

Soft, light dew still covered the ground
as the wind blew the leaves higher into the morning sky
her room shone a light, pale yellow
as dull, faded pink drapes gently rippled in the window
door bell chimed that simple song
no answer...
gentle soothing tones chimed again
the heavy maple door made an eery creek
our whispers echoed off each sterile, white wall
each stair a new, almost deafening squeak
her door ajar enough to light the dim and dusty hallway
as it opens you see her:
colorless, faded, limp, and lifeless
in her hand, a white bottle,blue label
as tiny off-white,oval pills covered the hardwood floor

Lexie Maria Degonda

Soft light dew still covered the ground
as the wind blew the leaves higher into the sky
her room shone a light pale yellow
as dull faded pink drapes gently rippled
door bell chimed that simple song
no answer...
gentle soothing tones chimed again
the heavy maple door made an eery creek
our whispers echoed off each sterile white wall
each stair a new almost deafining squeek
her door ajar enough to light the dim dusty hall
as it opens you see her
pale limp lifeless
a white bottle, blue lable lay in her hand
as tiny off-white oval pills covered the hardwood