My Most Succesful Mistake
by Fullmetal
Loving you is not the best thing, I have that clear
There are other things that I can do which bring no fear
Like writing, reading, sleeping, and running
Or just simply doing nothing
Loving you is not the best thing, but I like it
Even though it makes me the greatest masochist
It would be so much better if I distract myself with sports
The internet, the TV, or other things of the sort
Loving you is not the best thing, but it's perfect for me
For it gives me a reason to carry on with this monotony
Of doing the same thing winter, spring, summer, and fall
Of dealing with the same crap from sunrise to nightfall
Loving you makes me suffer, boy am I lucky this is real
For it's a reminder that I exist and that I feel
For it gives me something to think about every night
For even though I know it will lead me nowhere it feels right
Loving you is the poison that lengthens mortality
It is the fantasy mixed with reality
It is the killer drug that makes me feel alive
It is the same boring routine improvised
Loving you is by far the saddest comedyI
t is the best of the worst that has happened to me
It is the admiration mixed in with pity
It's what I feel and what most call complex stupidity
Loving you is the most illogical logic
It is the medicine that makes me sick
It is the one emotion that is shared by all
But that most of the time makes no sense at all
Loving you is the most perfect imperfection
The problem which I'm glad has no solution
And even though it is the pain that makes my heart ache
Loving you has been my most successful mistake
Please dont tell me not to cry
You dont know what i am feeling
or how much i hurt P
lease don't say there was a reason why
there are tears stains on this shirt
you think i should go on today
forget about it and be strong
i dont expect you to understand what to say
but deep down inside i dont want to go along
for no apparent reason i break down and cry
my life has changed forever you see
so dont act like its okay dont even try
for this is why i am not acting like the same ole me
because it changed my life forever
i will never be the same again
not today not tomorrow not ever
can you wear the friendship pin?
my broken heart is hurting
just like always my friend
its leaving it is leerking
and it will never mend
kinda unsure if i like it
Monday, September 29, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Longer short story start
"OUCH!," yelled Sarah as a football hit her dead on in the head.
Sarah is seventeen, her birthday coming up in just weeks, she has long dark brown wavy hair, tan skin, and long eyelashes. Her eyes are stunning, green with a drak blue outline, no make-up needed here. Cheerleading was her favorite pass time other than hanging out with her many friends. For you see Sarah was one of the "populars" in her school, everyone new her name, she was Sarah Nicole McKie. She had everything she could ever ask for in life, and everything was going great, that is until today.
For the last week or so her friends decided that she was not "cool" enough to be in their group anymore and started to ingore her. They wouldnt talk to her, they wouldnt let her sit with them at lunch, they even started rumors about her. Sarah heard one rumor that sent her over the edge, for now, thanks to Jessica, the whole school believe that Sarah was...pregnant. She wasnt, in fact it was Jessica who was. Hearing this the football players started mocking her, the nerds commented on her weight, the other cheerleaders would whisper under their breath during practice. It was getting old and she knew she would have to stop it some how. Thinking of ways of how to prove she was indeed not pregnant was not easy, who would believe her now? It was cheer practice on Friday afternoon she was a flyer today, as she got ready to start the lift she got side tracked by Kevin Bromburg, the eleged father of her baby. This is when she gets nailed with the football, thrown by Kevins best friend. As she snapped back into reality, she found that the whole squad had just left her to come back to and continued with practice.
"How can they finish practice i'm the head captian, they cant do that," she vented to the man cleaning the bleachers. He sat down next to her, didnt say a word. Somehow in the ten minutes that they sat there without speaking Sarah stood up feeling as though it was the best conversation she has ever had. The next day in school Sarah confronted Kevin. He too had heard the rumors, though they never really were friends Sarah trusted him. He told her that he had tried to stop it from spreading to put an end to it, but that in a small town news like that travels fast. She looked him in the eyes and saw the depths of his words, the ones he wrote in poetry class that she had always thought were taken from the internet. Kevin wrote down his number and handed it to her told her to call him sometime so they can figure out this whole mess.
Weeks pasted and Sarah and Kevin got closer, they talked everyday, not just about how to stop the rumor, about everything. Jessica, who has always had a thing for Kevin, was not happy. Her whole plan was failing, Kevin was supposed to believe the rumor that Sarah was pregnant, he was not supposed to be the accused daddy, and in the end he was supposed to come to Jessica and tell her that he has always loved her. Now he was falling for Sarah, this sent Jessica into a fit of anger. Trying to make things better she started talking to Sarah again, thinking that if she could befriend her she could get closer to Kevin. Sarah told her she would only even consider being friends again if Jessica publicly anounced that she started the rumor and that it was just that, a rumor. Jessica agreed on one condition, that Sarah stop hanging out with Kevin, that he was to be hers not Sarahs.
With a puzzled look Sarah said silently,"Jessica you cant make anyone yours people are not items to be labled, i have learned this. I may have alot of friends that does not make me "popular", i have a title of head cheerleader but that does not make me "cool" we are all cheerleaders, even those who are in the stands. I am just me Sarah Nicole McKie, and I will not stop talking to anyone just because you say to. if that is the case we wont be friends, i wont be sorry, its your loss, your the one lying to yourself."
Jessica shocked and in awe looked into Sarah's eyes. For the first time she got what understood what was meant by this, in an ashamed tone Jessica turned to Sarah and said," Im sorry, I know i shouldnt have, and i get it now. What you mean by lying to myself, Sarah can i tell you something, soemthing noone else knows?"
"Yes, you know im here for you i always have been, what is it?" Sarah seeing the seriousness in her eyes.
" i started the rumor about you to get the focus off of me, Sarah...Im pregnant. I dont know who the father is, im scared, i cant tell my parents, its been 3 months. Its going to start showing. What do i do?"
"OMG Jess i had no idea, we will figure this out. I promise. Me and you and Kevin, we can all talk about this, i think i know who the father is. Me and him had a talk last night and i know the whole story its okay."
Sarah, Jessica, and Kevin worked things out. Jessica told her parents, and they were understanding, Kevin and Sarah are still dating its been 5 years now, he is around for his child. Joseph Kevin-Alexander, after the father and the grandfather. Jessica and Sarah are closer than every before, all because of some rumor back in high school. Jessica got married to Kevins best friend Jay, they couldnt be happier. Kevin planned to prepose on their 6 year anniversay, Sarah is 4 months pregnant, for real this time.
Sarah is seventeen, her birthday coming up in just weeks, she has long dark brown wavy hair, tan skin, and long eyelashes. Her eyes are stunning, green with a drak blue outline, no make-up needed here. Cheerleading was her favorite pass time other than hanging out with her many friends. For you see Sarah was one of the "populars" in her school, everyone new her name, she was Sarah Nicole McKie. She had everything she could ever ask for in life, and everything was going great, that is until today.
For the last week or so her friends decided that she was not "cool" enough to be in their group anymore and started to ingore her. They wouldnt talk to her, they wouldnt let her sit with them at lunch, they even started rumors about her. Sarah heard one rumor that sent her over the edge, for now, thanks to Jessica, the whole school believe that Sarah was...pregnant. She wasnt, in fact it was Jessica who was. Hearing this the football players started mocking her, the nerds commented on her weight, the other cheerleaders would whisper under their breath during practice. It was getting old and she knew she would have to stop it some how. Thinking of ways of how to prove she was indeed not pregnant was not easy, who would believe her now? It was cheer practice on Friday afternoon she was a flyer today, as she got ready to start the lift she got side tracked by Kevin Bromburg, the eleged father of her baby. This is when she gets nailed with the football, thrown by Kevins best friend. As she snapped back into reality, she found that the whole squad had just left her to come back to and continued with practice.
"How can they finish practice i'm the head captian, they cant do that," she vented to the man cleaning the bleachers. He sat down next to her, didnt say a word. Somehow in the ten minutes that they sat there without speaking Sarah stood up feeling as though it was the best conversation she has ever had. The next day in school Sarah confronted Kevin. He too had heard the rumors, though they never really were friends Sarah trusted him. He told her that he had tried to stop it from spreading to put an end to it, but that in a small town news like that travels fast. She looked him in the eyes and saw the depths of his words, the ones he wrote in poetry class that she had always thought were taken from the internet. Kevin wrote down his number and handed it to her told her to call him sometime so they can figure out this whole mess.
Weeks pasted and Sarah and Kevin got closer, they talked everyday, not just about how to stop the rumor, about everything. Jessica, who has always had a thing for Kevin, was not happy. Her whole plan was failing, Kevin was supposed to believe the rumor that Sarah was pregnant, he was not supposed to be the accused daddy, and in the end he was supposed to come to Jessica and tell her that he has always loved her. Now he was falling for Sarah, this sent Jessica into a fit of anger. Trying to make things better she started talking to Sarah again, thinking that if she could befriend her she could get closer to Kevin. Sarah told her she would only even consider being friends again if Jessica publicly anounced that she started the rumor and that it was just that, a rumor. Jessica agreed on one condition, that Sarah stop hanging out with Kevin, that he was to be hers not Sarahs.
With a puzzled look Sarah said silently,"Jessica you cant make anyone yours people are not items to be labled, i have learned this. I may have alot of friends that does not make me "popular", i have a title of head cheerleader but that does not make me "cool" we are all cheerleaders, even those who are in the stands. I am just me Sarah Nicole McKie, and I will not stop talking to anyone just because you say to. if that is the case we wont be friends, i wont be sorry, its your loss, your the one lying to yourself."
Jessica shocked and in awe looked into Sarah's eyes. For the first time she got what understood what was meant by this, in an ashamed tone Jessica turned to Sarah and said," Im sorry, I know i shouldnt have, and i get it now. What you mean by lying to myself, Sarah can i tell you something, soemthing noone else knows?"
"Yes, you know im here for you i always have been, what is it?" Sarah seeing the seriousness in her eyes.
" i started the rumor about you to get the focus off of me, Sarah...Im pregnant. I dont know who the father is, im scared, i cant tell my parents, its been 3 months. Its going to start showing. What do i do?"
"OMG Jess i had no idea, we will figure this out. I promise. Me and you and Kevin, we can all talk about this, i think i know who the father is. Me and him had a talk last night and i know the whole story its okay."
Sarah, Jessica, and Kevin worked things out. Jessica told her parents, and they were understanding, Kevin and Sarah are still dating its been 5 years now, he is around for his child. Joseph Kevin-Alexander, after the father and the grandfather. Jessica and Sarah are closer than every before, all because of some rumor back in high school. Jessica got married to Kevins best friend Jay, they couldnt be happier. Kevin planned to prepose on their 6 year anniversay, Sarah is 4 months pregnant, for real this time.
Monday, September 22, 2008
55 word story
Timmy asked his mother,"mom what is love?" She paused a second and soon replied," love is a safe warm feeling, its trusting that person to always be there, and knowing that they care even when the world doesnt." As Timmy hugged her he whipsered," I love you Mommy."
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Ten Minute Play
Ten Minute Play
Scene: Abury and Alexander are in the living room of Abury’s house. There are two chairs set up on either side of the couch which is centered in the room. There are two lamps one is a floor lamp on the right side one is on the table on the left side of the couch. There is also a coffee table and a tv set. Abury and Alexander have been dating for almost two years now but have on and off since freshman year. Alexander is going to be heading off to college over a hour away and they topic of staying together and making it work comes up.
[alexander looks at abury who is sitting in the chair siltenly]
ALEXANDER
Abury you know I would stay if I could but...
ABURY
But what your leaving am I supposed to be happy? Am I supposed to smile like nothing is wrong that is doesn’t hurt?
ALEXANDER
[turns around to face the wall]
No I don’t expect you to, I know your upset but we can do this, it’s only 70 minutes away and ...and...
ABURY
[almost in tears moving to the couch]
And what Alexander finish your sentences PLEASE. Tell me I can just tell your waiting to say something. Tell me.
ALEXANDER
And I can just drive to see you right? Like every weekend! I get out of cshool at ahhh ummm I think 11 on Fridays...so I can meet you at your house. Okay?
[now sitting on couch]
ABURY
[crying harder as he puts his arm around her]
No you cant and you know that.
[coughs a little from crying]
We can’t do this its to hard my parents wontlet me come up there and you cant stay here. What are you going to do get a...
ALEXANDER
I’ll find somewhere to stay it’ll be okay.
ABURY
[standing up stopping the crying and is now angry]
NO! You don’t get it. Plus your in college, you can drink and party! Your dorm is co-ed all those girls up there....
ALEXANDER
[following her as she paces]
Have nothing on you. I know cheesy right? But its true, I don’t want anything to with them and you should know that.
ABURY
[pushing him down into the couch]
And what about when you party. Alcohol makes you do stuff it makes you do things you wouldn’t normally.
[turns her back and crosses her arms and softens her tone]
I cant even start to think about all the drunken phone calls and oh not to mention the lovely texts I will get.
ALEXANDER
[standing back up walking up to her]
I wont drink I swear Abury why cant you just trust me?
[phone rings and plays “ring of fire” he answers]
Hello?
GIRL ON LINE
[girls voice speaks in a sad tone]
Hey can we talk? Its kind of important. Something happened with me and Howard.
ALEXANDER
[in a rushed tone]
I cant talk right now. I’ll call you later okay I...
ABURY
[hangs up phone before Alexander can finish his sentence now yelling]
Who the heck was that? A girl! Your already cheating on me?
[tears up as the angry subsides]
I cant believe it.
ALEXANDER
[trying to hug her]
Abury just relax don’t cry it was Hannah, her and Howie are having trouble, she just wants to talk.
ABURY
[calming a little more]
Fine, I guess
[she slumps into the chair hugging her right leg into her chest as her left crosses under it]
I’m sorry its just so hard you know... I’m paranoid. I know I should trust you...we have been together forever.
ALEXANDER
[sitting on the couch as close as he can to the chair touching her leg gently]
2 years on Saturday, only four more days sweetie.
ABURY
[leaning forward]
I know and I cant wait but after that its only a week till your gone, til your over a hour away and I wont get movie or pizza and taco nights...
ALEXANDER
[with hand still on her leg]
We will though, just not as often and think they will be better because it well be something specail, it wont be a normal thing.
ABURY
Well when you put it like that it doesn’t sound so bad.
[frowning thinking more seriously]
Why does she have to call you all the time? Its annoying.
ALEXANDER
[confused sits back into the couch to think]
What?! You have got to be kidding me. She is just a friend, she is dating my best friend. Why is this just getting brought up now?
ABURY
[stands up and paces]
I never thought it was a big deal until now. I guess as long as she is a friend its okay. Can we please change the subject though I’m so over talking about Howard and Hannah’s problems.
ALEXANDER
[smiles in relief]
yes we can and thanks you
[abury turns to face him as he stands up next to her]
Hey Abury...
ABURY
[stops pacing seeing he is now more serious]
Yes Alexander?
ALEXANDER
[fiddling with something in his pocket]
So I know we have been fighting a lot lately about me leaving and all...
[getting more nervous]
And that your parents are really against you staying with and everything.
ABURY
[sees his hands shaking and that he is more nrevous than before]
Its not that they don’t want me to its that to them me staying there means their little girl is grown up and stuff ya know.
ALEXANDER
[grabbing her hand his voice gets soft]
Ler me finish please this is not easy for me I’ve thought about this over and over again before I knew it was just right.
ABURY
[taking back her hand and turning her back so her wouldnt see the tears coming, in a soft voice]
oh no, please Alexander we can do this I changed my mind I know we can we have to...
[in a voice just barely loud enough for him to hear]
because I cant do this on my own...
ALEXANDER
[obviously not paying attention to that last piece and is focused on the ceiling]
Abury hun please,please just listen let me finish just please..
[abury crys a little]
No don’t cry baby just listen to me.
ABURY
[though tears]
okay I’ll try
ALEXANDER
[taking her hand again]
I love you Abury I really do you are everything to me I have loved you since freshmen year...when I saw you at track practice, you were just a 8th grader...
ABURY
[turns to him]
I have something to tell you.
ALEXANDER
[getting slightly frusterated]
Abury please tell me after.
[back to looking at her]
Like I said I love you.
[Abury under her breath whispers “I love you too”]
And I would do anything for you and I hope you know that. Abury Christine Bounty
[getting on his knee pulling out the box]
will you...
ABURY
[interupting him]
I’m Pregnant
ALEXANDER
[jaw droppes and he whipsers the last few words]
marry me?...
[Abury cries as he takes her hand, curtain falls]
Scene: Abury and Alexander are in the living room of Abury’s house. There are two chairs set up on either side of the couch which is centered in the room. There are two lamps one is a floor lamp on the right side one is on the table on the left side of the couch. There is also a coffee table and a tv set. Abury and Alexander have been dating for almost two years now but have on and off since freshman year. Alexander is going to be heading off to college over a hour away and they topic of staying together and making it work comes up.
[alexander looks at abury who is sitting in the chair siltenly]
ALEXANDER
Abury you know I would stay if I could but...
ABURY
But what your leaving am I supposed to be happy? Am I supposed to smile like nothing is wrong that is doesn’t hurt?
ALEXANDER
[turns around to face the wall]
No I don’t expect you to, I know your upset but we can do this, it’s only 70 minutes away and ...and...
ABURY
[almost in tears moving to the couch]
And what Alexander finish your sentences PLEASE. Tell me I can just tell your waiting to say something. Tell me.
ALEXANDER
And I can just drive to see you right? Like every weekend! I get out of cshool at ahhh ummm I think 11 on Fridays...so I can meet you at your house. Okay?
[now sitting on couch]
ABURY
[crying harder as he puts his arm around her]
No you cant and you know that.
[coughs a little from crying]
We can’t do this its to hard my parents wontlet me come up there and you cant stay here. What are you going to do get a...
ALEXANDER
I’ll find somewhere to stay it’ll be okay.
ABURY
[standing up stopping the crying and is now angry]
NO! You don’t get it. Plus your in college, you can drink and party! Your dorm is co-ed all those girls up there....
ALEXANDER
[following her as she paces]
Have nothing on you. I know cheesy right? But its true, I don’t want anything to with them and you should know that.
ABURY
[pushing him down into the couch]
And what about when you party. Alcohol makes you do stuff it makes you do things you wouldn’t normally.
[turns her back and crosses her arms and softens her tone]
I cant even start to think about all the drunken phone calls and oh not to mention the lovely texts I will get.
ALEXANDER
[standing back up walking up to her]
I wont drink I swear Abury why cant you just trust me?
[phone rings and plays “ring of fire” he answers]
Hello?
GIRL ON LINE
[girls voice speaks in a sad tone]
Hey can we talk? Its kind of important. Something happened with me and Howard.
ALEXANDER
[in a rushed tone]
I cant talk right now. I’ll call you later okay I...
ABURY
[hangs up phone before Alexander can finish his sentence now yelling]
Who the heck was that? A girl! Your already cheating on me?
[tears up as the angry subsides]
I cant believe it.
ALEXANDER
[trying to hug her]
Abury just relax don’t cry it was Hannah, her and Howie are having trouble, she just wants to talk.
ABURY
[calming a little more]
Fine, I guess
[she slumps into the chair hugging her right leg into her chest as her left crosses under it]
I’m sorry its just so hard you know... I’m paranoid. I know I should trust you...we have been together forever.
ALEXANDER
[sitting on the couch as close as he can to the chair touching her leg gently]
2 years on Saturday, only four more days sweetie.
ABURY
[leaning forward]
I know and I cant wait but after that its only a week till your gone, til your over a hour away and I wont get movie or pizza and taco nights...
ALEXANDER
[with hand still on her leg]
We will though, just not as often and think they will be better because it well be something specail, it wont be a normal thing.
ABURY
Well when you put it like that it doesn’t sound so bad.
[frowning thinking more seriously]
Why does she have to call you all the time? Its annoying.
ALEXANDER
[confused sits back into the couch to think]
What?! You have got to be kidding me. She is just a friend, she is dating my best friend. Why is this just getting brought up now?
ABURY
[stands up and paces]
I never thought it was a big deal until now. I guess as long as she is a friend its okay. Can we please change the subject though I’m so over talking about Howard and Hannah’s problems.
ALEXANDER
[smiles in relief]
yes we can and thanks you
[abury turns to face him as he stands up next to her]
Hey Abury...
ABURY
[stops pacing seeing he is now more serious]
Yes Alexander?
ALEXANDER
[fiddling with something in his pocket]
So I know we have been fighting a lot lately about me leaving and all...
[getting more nervous]
And that your parents are really against you staying with and everything.
ABURY
[sees his hands shaking and that he is more nrevous than before]
Its not that they don’t want me to its that to them me staying there means their little girl is grown up and stuff ya know.
ALEXANDER
[grabbing her hand his voice gets soft]
Ler me finish please this is not easy for me I’ve thought about this over and over again before I knew it was just right.
ABURY
[taking back her hand and turning her back so her wouldnt see the tears coming, in a soft voice]
oh no, please Alexander we can do this I changed my mind I know we can we have to...
[in a voice just barely loud enough for him to hear]
because I cant do this on my own...
ALEXANDER
[obviously not paying attention to that last piece and is focused on the ceiling]
Abury hun please,please just listen let me finish just please..
[abury crys a little]
No don’t cry baby just listen to me.
ABURY
[though tears]
okay I’ll try
ALEXANDER
[taking her hand again]
I love you Abury I really do you are everything to me I have loved you since freshmen year...when I saw you at track practice, you were just a 8th grader...
ABURY
[turns to him]
I have something to tell you.
ALEXANDER
[getting slightly frusterated]
Abury please tell me after.
[back to looking at her]
Like I said I love you.
[Abury under her breath whispers “I love you too”]
And I would do anything for you and I hope you know that. Abury Christine Bounty
[getting on his knee pulling out the box]
will you...
ABURY
[interupting him]
I’m Pregnant
ALEXANDER
[jaw droppes and he whipsers the last few words]
marry me?...
[Abury cries as he takes her hand, curtain falls]
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