GRRRRness

so today has started like any other i wake upget ready freeze my ass off in my car as i drive to get joe who still needs to pay me or i am done picking him up and of course when i ask for money he goes il pay you in orgasims as a joke and im like its not a joke when i use so much extra gas to get him every day ...... then i got to school and started to feel sick AGAIN im a little worried i lost 12 pounds in the last 3 months which is good but im sure the break up helped out with that one. i mean all the stress that comes along with it you either dont eat or eat very little. im getting so sick of walking down the hall an hearing im pregnant i think i would know if i was and seeing as its been foreber since i had sex there is no way i am and its like really people i have LOSt weight not gained it and then there is the mutters of omg look at her she is so ugly i cant imagine her getting a guy then the opposite of she is such a slut and i just wanna go home and curl up i have such a stomach ache its not even funny and i just wish i could cuddle up with my blankey and Drake and watch a movie but no i have kids club and work! well im just gonna go there is nothing else i wish to reveal in here

all my love
xoxoxo
alyssa caroline

Drake

you look at me
and you smile
that big amazing
melt my heart smile
i cant look you
in the eyes anymore
it hurts to see that
you may really care
i try to look away
from you longing
stare, you wishful
hopeful grin i cant
its enticing capturing
me it swallows me
whole i cant no i
wont admit it but
i think i could no
i know i am 100%
head over heels over
the top in deep
sincere LIKE with..
You